Throughout pregnancy I knew I wanted to breastfeed and thought it would be the most natural thing in the world. For some women this is true but for me after three days of trying (and lots of crying) it just wasn't happening and my daughter wasn't getting what she needed. Putting her onto a bottle was, at the time, the hardest thing I've had to do. I felt like a failure especially after seeing how natural it was for my NCT friends. This feeling did pass and in the end worked out well for us. If I go on to have any more children I won't feel pressured into trying breastfeeding.